Monday 19 December 2011

Croydon's Burning - Paintings by me!


Croydon's Burning - 1
First stage of one of my paintings showing the chaos of the Croydon riots.




Croydon's Burning - 1

End result of painting, it show's a street cut off in the north end of Croydon and several burning buildings, the fire engines were unable to get the fire under control. 




My studio space at Chelsea.

The 'Burning Bus' painting on the left is the first in a series of paintings which show scenes, photographed by me, while watching news reports about the riots. I use the photographs as a start point for my paintings. 'Burning Bus' has had numerous changes, I have made another 6 paintings since I started it, however I continue to return to this piece of work as it troubles me, I don't think it is really working, it maybe that the problem is the composition.....
'Burning Bus' is destined to change again soon!

Friday 16 December 2011

Reeves Corner - Paintings by Me.



Reeves Corner - 1,


Reeves Corner - 2


These paintings were of scenes relating to the riots, they were too literal and lacked deepth. After seeing Richter's show I used a squeegee to obscure some of the work. I think it's  an improvement, but still subject to change!

Saturday 10 December 2011

Friday 9 December 2011

Cecily Brown

Cecily Brown's paintings combine figuration and abstraction. She draws her influences from painters such as Willem de Kooning and Philip Guston. She often titles her paintings after classic Hollywood films, such as The Pyjama Game and The bedtime Story. Sexuality and attraction are important themes in her work, which she explores through semi-figurative and abstract means.”
The Picnic 2005 - Cecily Brown

Thursday 8 December 2011

Burning Bus!


Detail of 'Burning Bus' Painting.


'Burning Bus' without the Bus!


Returning from holiday I found the area where I live looked like a war zone. While watching the news reports and films which documented the riots, I felt compelled to make work based on the chaos that engulfed my environment. Burning bus, is a large painting filled with fire and blackness, at least it was for a while. This painting has changed so many times, at one point the bus was totally visible, then it became covered in flames. At present  there is a hint of what was once there, it is a much troubled painting or perhaps it is me who is troubled. The painting is not working, The Burning Bus has become an experiment simply because I think it will never be 'finished'! The brush marks became too similar the colours too regular across the canvas and it was screaming for something drastic to happen. I decided to throw a big pot of thinned down oil paint at it! Definately an improvement, something quite interesting is happening where wet meets dry, thinner meets oil and drip meets bump; the surface has movement!

Tuesday 6 December 2011

'Ways of Seeing' John Berger

"Seeing comes before words. The child looks and recognizes before it can speak.
But there is also another sense in which seeing comes before words. It is seeing which establishes our place in the surrounding world; we explain that world with words but words can never undo the fact that we are surrounded by it. The relation between what we see and what we know is never settled." -John Berger.

'Ways of Seeing': a book of 7 essays, 4 of which are words and image and 3 are image only.

The essays raise questions with regard to how we see our surroundings, ourselves and others. Reading this for the 2nd time I noticed it affected my world quite completely; train journey's became more interesting as I questioned my surroundings and the people in it. I thought I was always quite observant, however I became obsessed with how people might view themselves to the point wereby I would make notes according to what they choose to wear, make-up, nails, hair? Whether they were conscious how good or bad they looked or did they even fit into either catergory? Or could they be average? What is average? Would I like to be considered average? It troubled me that I should even be thinking this way, what gives me the right to judge someone on their appearence, then again I'm not judging, merely speculating. But seriously is Berger right, are we as women watching ourselves as if we are men? Who are we trying to please? Do we consciously dress or act a certain way to please ourselves or for someone else? Is it even about what we wear or how our make up is applied, is it more about a presence. Do we as women, question who is watching us, and does this mean that our actions are calculated according to who might be looking? Is it an unconscious natural 'thing' that we have grown in to? Is it true as John Berger states that, "Men look at women. Women watch themselves being looked at....The surveyor of woman in herself is male: the surveyed female." I think there is something about the women in the paintings Berger refers to, in that, they are so aware of their appeal with regard to the viewer that they must see themselves as a man might see them. In some of the paintings talked about, the painter, has an emotional attachment  to the woman, she looks at the painter in an almost lustful way, but does this mean she is aware of looking at herslf as a man would. I think women are aware of how they are perceived, however, is this not true of men too? I suppose when refering to paintings Berger is dealing with naked women who appear to be very conscious of their sexuality. Berger also refers to "a man's presence dependant on power" and by contrast a woman's presence is defined by "her gestures, voice, opinions, expressions, clothes, chosen surroundings, taste," he goes on to say, "there is nothing she can do which does not contribute to her presence." I would like to think that women act and are what they are because it is who they want to be. However, the environment we live in, thanks to the media, places huge pressure on women to be some kind of super woman; to look amazing, to be great mothers, cooks, cleaners, wifes, partners, to have a career, to keep a nice home. All these things contribute to success, but success in who's eyes? Or is the pressure to be perfect something we place on ourselves, a way of validating our worth? Ultimately I think what we do and how we behave should be because its who we are. Deep within us I think an aura does exist, something we contain and carry, possibly from childhood, it surrounds our being and constitutes who we are.

Friday 2 December 2011

Gerhard Richter Show

I was totally absorbed by Richter's diverse approaches to painting, it amazes me that this collection of work is made by the same painter. Richter's traditional, delicate, still lifes positioned alongside huge, abstract paintings which show unpredictable, yet seemingly decisive mark making. Using large brushes, lots of paint and a squeegee, the paint is then wiped across the surface of the canvas. Bold slashes of colour create layers to the work and the space where paint is removed or scraped away reveals previous marks and colour. As I struggle to work out what 'type' of painter I am, if indeed there is a 'type', I am inspired by Richter's bold, intentional and possibly random mark making. Seeing the show has made me want to throw or squeegee paint at paintings which I'm not happy with or that are still work in progress. I risk loosing current work but then by removing some of the random paint I can attempt to rediscover what actually works in the painting.

Station - 1985



Abstract Painting - 1997

Saturday 25 June 2011

Grey paintings.

Grey 01- 2011




Grey 02 - 2011


The 'Grey' paintings above were in an end of term exhibition in 'The Morgue'.